I let me go
Whatever I have been holding.
My lust comes out in a few strokes.
I am weak.
My seed lies wasted
Proof of modern man.
When the lust is driven to its climax
I come (crashing) out of me.
And when I do,
Guilt enters
To make sure I live
In hell.
I am tormented by me,
Allured and abused,
Driven mad and then pampered,
Loved and hated equally
In all my times.
I am divided
Not in two but millions.
Each face has its own story
And I am the book with a shining cover.
Inside I hold many secrets
Many trials of time,
Many torments.
You point a finger at me and laugh
As I cross the street,
But I know
You are no good.
You have the same secrets,
Your face is equally scarred,
Maybe more
But you hide it like I do.
I dare to come out
I dare to say
I am gay
I have watched porn
And enjoyed it.
I know your rules
But I choose not to follow them.
I look at men with gleaming eyes
Hoping to know them better.
Feel them, touch them, love them.
They invite me
When I am hard.
I am broken,
I walk on me,
I cut my legs,
I fall
To rise,
To fall again
And rise if I have strength.
I am not you.
I do not belong.
I am alone
And I know
You are too.
You do not belong
But you want to.
So you condemn me,
You abuse me.
You lust after me when alone
But you hate me in public.
You want me.
You want me in you.
Deep, penetrating, discovering you
Let you melt and give away
When you come
When I come.
And I want you
Igniting every cell of me,
Touching everything I have.
Deep in me
Where I do not exist,
In the darkness of my being
I want to feel you
And when I do
I want you to come
When I come.
Wow, very intense and emotional. I love it.
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Thanks Laurie! 🙂
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This beautiful, like this one
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Thanks Jo. I’m glad you liked it.
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